As I step back into “self” I can’t help but feel expanded in a way, a feeling of growth and the freedom that comes with it.
This change and practice definitely doesn’t come easy, but it sure is worth it. As a fixed sign [Aquarius Sun] it can be challenging being an empath and a Spirit having a human experience because it involves so much change and growth that happens consistently. As a fixed sign, change can be a nightmare. I just came out of a new transformative phase in my life, change can be so challenging and hard to go through, leaving a bad taste in your mouth thereafter making you look at change as a negative thing instead of something that’s a catalyst to growth and our evolution.
I’ve always been unique; Lol and I’m not saying this to be a cliche, or superficially, I mean I’ve always felt like I don’t fit in or there’s no one I can really relate to, which can get lonely. As I got older and after discovering what being an indigo child is and realizing I am gifted has kind of helped me understand why I had some of the experiences I had, hindsight is 20:20.Being an indigo child or an empath you tend to struggle with fitting in and finding your footing in the 3D capitalist world that feels so foreign to us, and our souls reject it making it not the easiest to deal with. Trying it navigate your “self” and how others perceive you can leave you feeling stuck, alone, and disconnected to our true self at times.
I’ve been through living in my dreams and manifestations and basking in my blessings to immediately losing it all and getting even bigger blessings I suppose I should be used to this and understand the patterns that come with each change cycle. You’d think. But this comes with having this human experience we’re currently in, it gets tricky cause as a human you panic and go into a victim consciousness/ mentality, literally all the low vibrational phases that exist, before realizing the pattern and just sitting back, going with the flow, and waiting for the change and ascension to take place. It’s funny to me all the time.
I remember one of my spiritual mentors telling me when I call her crying and panicking she’d say “You always panic but you know that things always work out, you’ve been through this enough times to know better” Lol.
Like “Valery honestly, why are you tripping?!” But as a human, this needs practice and learning to know when to believe and listen to your brain and when to listen and follow your intuition, to listen to your heart.
So the journey to always stepping back into self is like the ocean, comes in waves and I am always in awe of how beautiful the waves look from afar but the turmoil of being in the waters and going through the tides. Life–if you take time to look at your experience holistically is so beautiful and breathtaking, however, we tend to get so stuck in the tides that we forget about the beautiful story we’re writing of the alchemy of our life. This is why it is important for us to always make it a priority for us to take time out to reconnect and align with self, you can do this through the various methods of meditation.
So I plan to share my day-to-day trials and triumphs with you guys, I’ve been wanting to do this for years, but divine timing, right? This is in hopes that my stories and experiences impact and touch someone in their journey. I want to create a community for us as a collective [we are all connected and if one wins the others win as well] as we go through a collective ascension, so this way this community can be our haven where we can grow, succeed and create a positive impact in each others lives.
The alchemy of life and purpose.
Love Kea <3